Tag: mum
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What I’m really worried about
I asked myself what it is that I’m so worried about and in response I saw my mum being dragged into a whirpool of something thick and sticky and I knew I won’t be able to get her out. I suppose it was a whirpool of care system and it meant she’ll never be able…
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Hot afternoon
I keep walking outside of the hostel, enjoying hot weather and nice area around me but I keep thinking I should be with mum. That’s of course impossible due to Covid. The annoying thing is that number of infections is really low in the entire country. I guess it’s just a precaution but why now,…
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Not seeing things from other people perspective
We sometimes hear that autistic people don’t have empathy. But I know it’s not true. When I see my mum, so tiny in her hospital bed, I can see how vulnerable she is and I want to protect her. We just can’t see things from other people perspective. When I first found out she had…
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Love mum
I arranged the transport for mum for Monday 11am and was told I can go with her. I can’t wait to see her, I hope she will be happy in her new place. I keep thinking how vulnerable she is now and how much I want to protect her. Nothing else matters now. Forget the…
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Private care home
The private care home looked a bit like a hotel, slightly over the top and much better than any care home I’ve ever seen in the UK (and I’ve seen a few). I was slightly reluctant after seeing that and also it’s in the middle of nowhere, but then I think a lot of care…
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Feeling hopeless
I sneaked into mum’s care home today around lunch time (door is never locked) as there was no one in the hallway. I had some bits and pieces for her but I also wanted to see her. I just said ‘this is for you’ and was just about to leave when she asked ‘how much…
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Two nurses
I spoke with two nurses from mum’s care home and they both told me I don’t necessarily need to move mum, she’ll have a good care where she is and her money can be spent later on something else. But I feel bad about keeping it. It’s not mine. I can’t spend it knowing my…
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18.25 – I called mum!
I got enough courage today to call my mum. I felt really strange after I last tried to speak with her and she wasn’t replying. That put me off of calling her for good couple of days. Mum was really alert today which is obviously good. She wanted to know the truth about my brother…
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14.55 – keep walking, you may get somewhere one day
I left the hostel at 9.20 to get to the police station by 10. Only during my investigation two other people called regarding the same case. The policeman said that if bank don’t take responsibility this may take more than a year to sort out. Police station is close to my mum’s care home so…
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7.45am
I am suddenly angry at mum, thinking why she couldn’t get the grip of what was happening with her money. Why? But then, that’s who she was. She couldn’t do tax return (they are compulsory in here) even when she was younger. She was however very good at asking people to do things for her…
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