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From specific to general
It is said that autistic people focus too much on details and don’t see the big picture. I never thought about myself like that, but I guess the way how it was described didn’t really describe the experience from my perspective; better way to describe it would be: I want to focus on specifics instead […]
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Was getting engaged my quest?
I already commented on, what I think is John’s quest in our dating game, but I now wonder if I didn’t have one too? To get engaged. Married would be a bit more difficult as we would need to organise somewhere to live together and also it has long term serious consequences while engaged is […]
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I have a need to be abandoned
Yesterday I asked John what he thinks about my ‘meeple quest theory’, which, I believe is the reason for him cutting our dates short: he sees himself as being based in his house and coming for a date with me is a quest that he completes. As hanging around for social reasons doesn’t make sense […]
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I think my communication skills have been blocked by life (but I want to be left alone)
I am thinking that possibly I am not a great communicator not only ‘because I’m autistic’ but because my communication skills have been blocked when I was younger. First, it was not impossible in my family to ask why certain things are happening, at least not when my dad was around. Mum was happy to […]
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Secret life of meeples
Normally I am ok with being on my own. Sometimes when John comes over I can still spend an hour or two doing my patterns. I’m actually quite happy with him being in the same room without much interaction, I think I may sometimes prefer it. I’d like him to be around more though, but […]
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How to deal with passive-agressive behaviour
I do understand that I didn’t discuss patient confidentiality yet in my posts. As you may be aware I believe that I’m on speech and language therapy delivered by the community for like a year and 4 months now and very recently that thing started seriously getting on my nerves, but my mental health provider […]
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The last meeting with my nurse
So I saw my psychiatric nurse the last time yesterday. I gave her that basic card and small box of Polish chocolates. On the card I wrote this message: Thank you for all the support I received from you. I will always remember your kindness and dedication. Good luck in your new job. Kindness and […]
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A Magda shaped hole
This is an authentic email I received yesterday. A good piece of creative writing, I would say. A Magda shaped hole? I’d never think neurotypicals could come up with anything like that. Enterpreneurs Circle is a club for business owners in the UK, that I joined a year ago when I was trying to go […]
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Human being in a bag
Yesterday I was chatting with John about the food festival we’re going to on Sunday. I reminded him to take his rucksack. I got it for him as we were getting ready to go on holiday to Poland a few years ago, long before Covid pandemic. I found that rucksack in a charity shop, but […]
Autistic and me 