Tag: mum
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I miss John, terribly
I started feeling better on lamotrigine already but for around a week now my depression seems to be coming back. I didn’t see John last weekend and I won’t see him this weekend either. Can someone explain to me how it is possible that I miss him so badly but at the same time it…
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Why do people gossip at work?
I had this idea a few weeks ago to start posting about concepts that I read in psychology books and I don’t think this is going to work. I borrowed ‘Read people’ by Rita Carter from the library and it took me two days to read it. Obviously I was also doing other things, like…
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I want to speak with mummy
It’s been almost two weeks since I last posted. Not like me at all, although I do feel sometimes that I started repeating myself lately. I did state a while ago that I don’t grieve any more and here you are: now I so badly want to call my mum it’s almost painful. Otherwise I…
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I miss my mum (again)
I remember, I said a few days ago that I’m not grieving any more but I do miss her. She would be my best cheerleader, now when I’m studying at uni. I imagine that I call her and what she would say. She’d most likely would be like ‘that’s very good, that’s very good’. I…
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Empathetic listening (is communication taboo?)
Yesterday I was meant to have my first phone session with a bereavement volunteer from Cruse but I somehow forgot about it and didn’t answer the call. She emailed me later so I apologised but straight away thought, wait a minute, do I want a stranger to demonstrate empathetic listening to me over the phone…
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Eat regular meals and masturbate
1. The Friend asked me a few days ago not to comment on my blog on what she says or does other than something very general like where we went for a trip. It was quite difficult for me to accept that but it quickly became obvious that I have no choice but to get…
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Don’t steal
I mentioned here that my mum was a victim of fraud, and had a large sum of money stolen by her favourite bank employee, but it’s been several months now that I think it was all arranged. There was no fraud, it was to trigger me to start playing a different game. I would occasionally…
Autistic and me 