Tag: mum
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Eat regular meals and masturbate
1. The Friend asked me a few days ago not to comment on my blog on what she says or does other than something very general like where we went for a trip. It was quite difficult for me to accept that but it quickly became obvious that I have no choice but to get […]
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Don’t steal
I mentioned here that my mum was a victim of fraud, and had a large sum of money stolen by her favourite bank employee, but it’s been several months now that I think it was all arranged. There was no fraud, it was to trigger me to start playing a different game. I would occasionally […]
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Mum is always right
I wanted to go to Cirencester today, which is a small but lovely town not too far from Swindon. There is a bus service that goes to Cirencester once a day and I can catch it from my regular bus stop instead of going to bus station. However, the service has no time table printed […]
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Emotional regulation for autistics
I did wonder on my blog a couple of times what it means that autistic people have difficulties with emotional regulation, and neurotypicals find it easier. I never found any explanation for how neurotypicals do that and it did sound to me like after several minutes of being upset they just tell themselves ‘ok, it’s […]
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I had a dream that my mum simulated her own death (should I be talking meds ‘for autism’?)
I was in Poland and mum was with me. She was able to walk and speak normally. I don’t know how I found her but at some point I started wondering how come she’s alive and where she actually lives if I cancelled her care home payments. Then neighbours then started giving me various hints […]
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A few more words about unmasking
Yesterday I wrote that I always feel like I’m acting when I’m around other people and later on I realised that is not technically correct. I don’t ALWAYS feel like I’m acting, I only feel like I’m acting when I’m about to say something and I’m deciding what that should be. So I presume I […]
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I coped on the show but I feel feel crap
So, how the show worked was that we briefly discussed a subject when the music was playing and then repeated the same thing but in a more animated way when we were live. It looked like masking to me. It’s very funny because if I didn’t know much about autism I’d assume this is what […]
Autistic and me 