Tag: mum
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The problem with aging parent
What I find the most difficult with my mum being elderly is, that she can’t help me no more. She was always there for me, trying her best, even though if slightly ineffective at times. Especially if my brother ruined something for me she would rush and help. Now, she can’t do that any more…
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My suicide attempt
I hope this won’t be triggering for anybody so first of all, let me clarify that I didn’t really want to die. And yet, I took 18 lorazepams at once. I actually thought I took 19 but the 19th was still in the box, although the seal was broken. The box contained 20 and I…
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Early morning, Saturday
Mum asked me to get her mobile fixed for her and I did but I’m not sure now it was a good idea. My brother will be calling her and demanding money and getting things organised. But then, what I was supposed to say? She’s an adult, adults have mobiles. A couple of days ago…
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I forgot to keep playing
Yesterday I was fairly busy during the day so I didn’t go to see mum. I don’t know if I explained that her new care home is a few kilometres away from town, in the middle of nowhere? I could have probably gone towards the afternoon but I remember how tired and quiet she was…
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Is my mum hinting me? Detailed explanation
First of all I do apologise for my messy drawing. I suppose not using pen and paper every day has its impact on me. In here I wanted to explain in detail how I understand my mum’s comment ‘I want to live in Poland, unless that’s not possible then I go back to yours’. When…
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Is my mum hinting me?
Two days ago, when I visited mum for the first time in her new care home, she told me she wants to live in Poland, unless it’s impossible, then she’ll go back to mine again. It sounded to me like expectation. Mind you, she didn’t say ‘In Smardzewice’, where our family home is, just ‘in…
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Hotel quality care home?
Despite of me worrying mum would not want to spend her savings on a care home, she seems to enjoy this bit of luxury. I was allowed to see her in the room today, as the other two beds are vacant, and I found her covered in crispy, hotel quality white bedding. But as I…
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Care standards
One of mum’s pressure sores is quite bad, it looks like all the skin has been peeled off of her heel. I’m shocked that the old care home didn’t even inform me. I was really thinking they are taking good care of her. Surprisingly mum said she started liking the new care home and how…
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Things went fairly well
Mum was transferred to her new care home today and it seemed to went well, despite me panicking due to having very little control over what was happening. I was not allowed in to check her bags and I’m not sure whether she had her glasses with her. I was also not able to check…
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What I’m really worried about
I asked myself what it is that I’m really so worried about and in response I saw my mum being dragged into a whirpool of something thick and sticky and I knew I won’t be able to get her out. I suppose it was a whirpool of care system and it meant she’ll never be…
Autistic and me 