Tag: The Boyfriend
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Autism and emotions – Purple Ella
I just found this video made by Purple Ella, an autism advocate and entrepreneur. I find it very interesting when Ella said that when she feels negative emotions she needs to find a problem and will attribute this problem to that emotion and then tries to deal with this problem. It’s interesting that Ella knows…
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Star wars (the first day after my ‘manifesting’ attempts)
I’m rushing to say that I feel quite ok today. The fear that I’ll spend the rest of my life in bed is mostly, although not entirely gone. It bothers me a little bit that visualisation is always associated with New Age, as this is certainly not what I am interested in and want to…
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‘I find your lack of cheer disturbing’
I’ve heard it’s Valentines day today? And I’m single. Not that I was ever bothered too much when I was in a relationship. Me and John spoke twice last week: the first time we were talking about possibly getting back together but we couldn’t agree on how that would look like. Only then I had…
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Do autistics really have difficulties with expressing their emotions?
I posted something autism related on Polish Facebook group related to psychology and somebody asked me if I have difficulties with expressing my emotions. That is apparently one of an autism trait. But only when I was asked this question in such a direct way the truth became apparent to me: I don’t have difficulties…
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Managing my emotions
I’m really sad and I don’t know why. In the past I used to be interested a lot in managing my emotions. I was focusing on how I felt hoping that will bring me clarity. Unfortunately it only brought me confusion. Have anyone heard about emotional intelligence for autistics? If you do, please let me…
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I can’t do this any more
It’s close to midnight when I write this post and I feel quite uneasy. I was thinking earlier on to suggest to John that possibly I could come over to his place and we could talk but when I was at work today I suddenly got the idea that’s not the right thing to do.…
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I feel exhausted (my body image)
I wonder how this is actually possible? After all that sleep I had yesterday? I think I also had a nap after lunch today but I’m not sure. I mean, I don’t remember what I was doing between 2 and 3.30 pm. I did some shopping in Lidl so at least I have food for…
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Lunar feast
That is a title of one of a recent Redecor challenges. And guess what I read? Funeral. This is not the first time when I realised that I twist words into what I have in my head. Possibly that’s why communication with us is so difficult? I wonder, however, if neurotypical people also do that.…
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Even more sleep
So basically yesterday, after having two long midday naps, like 4h in total I also had two evening naps. That’s how I marked mum’s funeral day. I then woke up at 22.30 and I decided it’s time to actually go to sleep so I changed into pj, brushed my teeth and slept till 7.40am. I’m…
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Can relationship be a separate entity?
I spent part of my Sunday on listening to podcasts about relationships. I especially remember the interview with dr Guy Winch, a relationship psychologist who talked about concept of seeing a relationship as a separate entity. It’s not the first time I came accross that concept and I must say I don’t understand it at…
Autistic and me 