Tag: patterns
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I want unlimited choices
It is said that autistic people get overwhelmed with too many choices and quite frankly, this is not my experience at all. Does it mean my autism is ‘mild’? Well, not necessarily – it can mean that either I don’t share this particular trait or possibly even that autism research are flawed. Recently me and […]
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Coping with unexpected events
I read an article today about an autistic girl who just started school and her mum asked the teacher to always explain to that girl at the beginning of the day what is going to happen, so that she doesn’t have to cope with unexpected events as those are stressing her out. And I thought, […]
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Should I learn to drive? (probably not)
I had this idea yesterday that it’s finally time to learn to drive. How I came up with that was probably because the only pattern I can see in lifes of successful people, who have something exciting going on for them, is that they are drivers. And, as I didn’t see any other pattern, it […]
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How is success achieved?
I spent over an hour reading through a peculiar website about equipment for ‘cell counting’. I didn’t really understand much, but I didn’t try to – it was just to see if reading through a material only to see a pattern is going to help me to calm down my brain. And it did, quite […]
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Excitement equals danger
I’ve never been good at dealing with excitement. Or, to be precise, every time I feel excitement I ruin everything about the thing that excites me. It is very easy to say it’s self sabotage and, again, explain that it’s because I don’t believe I deserve good things happening to me (exactly what my counsellor […]
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I got lucky twice!
It’s only been a few months ago since I realised that how I understand the concept of luck is probably quite different from other people: for me it’s not about the impact the event has, but about how unlikely it is. So if it’s something small, but very unlikely, and it’s positive, I consider myself […]
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‘I find your lack of cheer disturbing’
I’ve heard it’s Valentines day today? And I’m single. Not that I was ever bothered too much when I was in a relationship. Me and John spoke twice last week: the first time we were talking about possibly getting back together but we couldn’t agree on how that would look like. Only then I had […]
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Latest pattern creation
I guess sometimes it may be easier to add my pattern in a separate post, instead of adding them as illustrations for posts about my emotions. It feels to me like, if I include my pattern images to be part of my posts, they should somehow reflect the emotions I write about and it gets […]
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