Tag: meltdown
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My last (hopefully) uni meltdown
It’s so difficult for me right now. Part of me screams I should continue my study. Why? Because I started it. And possibly also because John really liked the idea of me studying for a masters. But I can’t do it, you know? Every time I try to think about writing my assignment my mind…
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A few words about unmasking
I presume if you’re interested in neurodiversity (and I guess you are if you’re on my blog) you might have heard about unmasking movement. It has nothing to do with taking off the masks we were supposed to wear because of Covid pandemic. Masking is all the effort autistic people do to appear neurotypical, and…
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I coped on the show but I feel feel crap
So, how the show worked was that we briefly discussed a subject when the music was playing and then repeated the same thing but in a more animated way when we were live. It looked like masking to me. It’s very funny because if I didn’t know much about autism I’d assume this is what…
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‘I find your lack of cheer disturbing’
I’ve heard it’s Valentines day today? And I’m single. Not that I was ever bothered too much when I was in a relationship. Me and John spoke twice last week: the first time we were talking about possibly getting back together but we couldn’t agree on how that would look like. Only then I had…
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I’ve been chucked out of a conversation (and I’m having a meltdown)
Ok, so I’m back home now, at 22.20, after a short shift in a supported living place. Suppoted living is where a person with disabilities lives in their own place instead of care home and have staff coming in. I was there with another lady, very lively and chatty, and I actually liked her, but…
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I feel like going on strike
Well, I was in a good mood for a few days already so now it’s time to be low. Btw I do not think that means I’m bipolar (which is my second diagnosis): I didn’t overspend, I didn’t get drunk, I didn’t even overeat (ta da!), I also didn’t make any strange plans regarding my…
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Having a mini meltdown
The last couple of days I tried to look for a job the same way a neurotypical person would, or at least how I imagine they do it. That means applying for every job that I think I have chances of getting, even if I don’t particularly want to work in that place. And the…
Autistic and me 