Tag: The Boyfriend
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Adjusting to cold
I visited John for two days and I managed with temperature as low as 15C indoors while wearing only two layers of clothing. As I mentioned on my blog multiple times I am (I was?) oversensitive to cold. If temperature indoors was 21C I’d wear long sleeve vest, jumper and a cardigan and still didn’t…
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John’s life coaching skills
I’m sure I already mentioned that a few times, but you may not remember or possibly you didn’t read those posts: I love talking to John when I have a problem. Even when he is not familiar with the area I have problems with he will always says something that is like that missing puzzle…
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John said he missed me
And those two words made me feel like he really is on my side; like if he’s waiting for me to get better but not pushing for it. You see, communicating with a depressed autistic person is really not that difficult. He also said I may need to go to doctor. But I don’t want…
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To believe or not to believe?
I’m just reading ‘Dancing with Dementia’, a book by Christine Bryder, an author and advocate with young onset Alzheimer disease. Christine says at the beginning of the book that she asked her church group to pray for her shortly after her diagnosis and they did, they specifically decided to pray for her recovery. She was…
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Can I have some dopamine, please?
I keep trying to understand the role of dopamine in developing psychosis. Of course that is unlikely to happen as even scientists don’t understand the connection, they only assume dopamine causes psychosis. But if I’m on medication that reduces effects of dopamine in the brain and dopamine is responsible for brain reward system (at least…
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I don’t want to focus on any external stimuli today
As you may be aware I decided not to meet John today. I don’t know what it is exactly: side effect of medication, side effect of psychosis, laziness, low motivation, trying to save up all the mental energy for going back to work next week or just me being my autistic self, but I feel…
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Dementia treatment dream
Yesterday evening I decided that I shouldn’t be sleeping on the sofa too often and went to the spare bedroom. I only slept around 9h and woke up with a headache, one that I usually get when I’m about to have a cold. I got a bit annoyed, after all this time I was off…
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I mustn’t eat those mince pies
John came over and brought some mince pies. Normally I’d have one after dinner but the thought I need to go back on olanzapine made me realise something: I have to learn to say no to food! Otherwise I’ll explode one day or at least won’t be able to get through the door. When I…
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My significant other
I was filling in a student loan form online in the morning and I was asked to give next of kin details. Obviously that would be John but I didn’t know what to choose for him as a relationship with me as Fiance wasn’t on the list. Funny thing, the list was pretty extensive; I…
Autistic and me 