Tag: The Boyfriend
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I feel better, finally
After sleeping almost 9h previous night, I had 10h of sleep last night. This is such a massive improvement – being able to sleep excesively when I’m going through stressful time is so much better than sleeping for 1 or 2h a night and developing psychosis as a result. Therefore I’d really recommend everyone Sleep […]
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I can’t do this any more
It’s close to midnight when I write this post and I feel quite uneasy. I was thinking earlier on to suggest to John that possibly I could come over to his place and we could talk but when I was at work today I suddenly got the idea that’s not the right thing to do. […]
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I feel exhausted (my body image)
I wonder how this is actually possible? After all that sleep I had yesterday? I think I also had a nap after lunch today but I’m not sure. I mean, I just don’t remember what I was doing between 2 and 3.30 pm. I typed up an email for John, one that adressed his point […]
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Lunar feast
That is a title of one of a recent Redecor challenges. And guess what I read? Funeral. This is not the first time when I realised that I twist words that I see to fit into what I have in my head. Possibly that’s why communication with us is so difficult? I wonder, however, if […]
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Even more sleep
So basically yesterday, after having two long midday naps, I had two evening naps and when I woke up at 22.30 I decided it’s time to actually go to sleep so I changed into pj, brushed my teeth and slept till 7.40am. I’m sure my psychiatric nurse would be proud of the progress I made. […]
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How I marked my mum’s funeral day
I had two naps today for around 4h in total. I wonder if dr Guy Meadows, the founder of Sleep School would be proud of me, or would he feel shocked and devastated? He could be proud because for such a long time sleeping when I was under stress was almost impossible and having a […]
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Guide on how to escape from yourself
I mentioned here before that since I started blogging, I sometimes see words in my head like if they were typed up. Those words seem to describe situation that I am in and appear when I’m under stress. It doesn’t happen very often, but it happened again today. Only that the word ‘yourself’ was not […]
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Can relationship be a separate entity?
I spent part of my Sunday on listening to podcasts about relationships. I found a relationship coach called Jonathon Aslay who seems to be making a lot of sense but I didn’t spend enough time on studying what he has to say to really be able to recommend him. I certainly think though that he […]
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Who sent the last message?
I must say here I’m a little concerned about John not trying to contact me to check on me. Before we started dating properly I noticed he had that rule that if he sent the last email to me on a day, he couldn’t contact me again later, he had to wait till I emailed […]
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It’s complicated
That is my current relationship status on Facebook. I’m not quite sure why I chose it because, when I first broke up with John, I told him it’s definitely over. Our relationship seemed to be devoid of passion lately and I can’t blame it on anyone, not even myself. I guess this is what happens […]
Autistic and me 