Tag: The Boyfriend
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My thinking process
I did read a couple of times that other autistics think in images, so I thought I’d do a post on how I see my thinking process. I don’t think in images, although when I’m looking for something, I may see this thing in my mind in the place where I was using it the…
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Was getting engaged my quest?
I already commented on, what I think is John’s quest in our dating game, but I now wonder if I didn’t have one too? To get engaged. Married would be a bit more difficult as we would need to organise somewhere to live together and also it has long term serious consequences while engaged is…
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I have a need to be abandoned
Yesterday I asked John what he thinks about my ‘meeple quest theory’, which, I believe is the reason for him cutting our dates short: he sees himself as being based in his house and coming for a date with me is a quest that he completes. As hanging around for social reasons doesn’t make sense…
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Secret life of meeples
Normally I am ok with being on my own. Sometimes when John comes over I can still spend an hour or two doing my patterns. I’m actually quite happy with him being in the same room without much interaction, I think I may sometimes prefer it. I’d like him to be around more though, but…
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Why autistic men are so stubborn sometimes?
Mind you, this is just a theory. It’s about my fiancé, John, refusing to tell me that he was working on his communication skills over the last couple of months, even though that refusal was so distressing to me that at some point I was worried that I’d end up psychotic again. (Mind you, I…
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John changed subconsciously
So finally I decided that I have no other choice but to accept this version of events. I also realised something, in case you asked: why I didn’t mention to John earlier I noticed a change in his communication, if it’s been going on since beginning of February? I think the main reason is that…
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Feeling compassionate (towards John and myself)
I told you that I started having the idea that I’m on speech and language therapy delivered by the community over a year ago. Probably March last year. It didn’t bother me at all, if anything I considered it fun. The people who were saying all those things that I later reported on my blog…
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I set up another Gmail account
To better communicate with John. Well, I suppose that sounds confusing for you… One good thing about realising I’m autistic is understanding that I don’t ‘get attracted to men who have issues’, their issues have no impact on whether I choose them or not. Moreover, I’m not aware of them at all when we just…
Autistic and me 