Tag: mental health
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My sick note runs out today
As you may remember (or not, if you just started reading my blog) after a period of being unemployed for a few months (I did some temporary jobs during that time) I had my job induction on 19th of January. The next day my mum passed away. I tried to work for the first month…
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Can anxiety cause fatigue?
I have this problem with fatigue since after my first psychotic episode. At first I didn’t feel tired every day, only after having panic attack. And the panic attacks were caused, at first, by emails from employment tribunal, but after a while I had them every evening. I remember one day, a day after experiencing…
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I want to be the breave one!
I still feel really panicky. It seems to me like two hostels bookings not working out is a notification from the environment (a sign if you wish) that I should stay but at the same time I feel like I really want to go, to help my country and our neighbours who are stuck there.…
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I’m cleaning
After deciding to take an Ukrainian refugee I am surprised to feel like I gained some control of the situation. Which is obviously not true, the situation of the people of Ukraine will be exactly the same, but I feel better, so that is something. Today it was actually the first time I cried while…
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Should I take a refugee?
I’ve been thinking, maybe when (and if) I go to Poland, I should find an Ukrainian refugee to bring back with me? I would need to tidy up the spare room, but it’s not too bad and I recently got rid of a massive armchair from there, that wasn’t very comfortable to sit on, so…
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I just realised something (the importance of indirect communication)
When I realised I’m autistic and that there are levels of communication that I don’t get, I started paying more attention to what is being said in non direct way. For that I didn’t need anyone to prompt me (I described here a while ago how my diagnostician prompted me to see other people perspectives).…
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Should I learn to drive? (probably not)
I had this idea yesterday that it’s finally time to learn to drive. How I came up with that was probably because the only pattern I can see in lifes of successful people, who have something exciting going on for them, is that they are all drivers. And, as I didn’t see any other pattern,…
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I’m allocating myself a reward
I’m on my way from the local radio station, and I must say the chat with the manager went really well. I will write more about it later, possibly even tomorrow, after I put things into perspective, but for now I wanted to say that I had a feeling like I want to allocate myself…
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What is the difference between mental and physical tiredness?
The first time I came accross the term mental tiredness was when I started reading about autism. Only then I realised what I was going through every time when I had loads happening in my life: once in a while I had to spend an entire day in bed doing absolutely nothing and the next…
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I feel numbed
I had my visit to the dentist and I was numbed, so I feel numbed. It’s a very smart sentence, isn’t it? I think I should feel lucky as the infection cleared off in both of teeth that I was worried about. I didn’t know that is possible, I thought one day I’ll just wake…
Autistic and me 