Tag: mental health
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I’m decluttering
I got rid of almost all art suppliers. It makes me anxious. But I can now use my spare bedroom. I will probably sleep in it today, or at least I’ll try. I remember how a year ago I used to write quite dramatic posts from my bed in a hostel in Tomaszów. Anxiety over…
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I never learned how to deal with the feeling of really wanting something
It just my life circumstances didn’t really allowed it, since I was a child, through adolescence and adulthood. Now I feel like aripiprazole makes my real emotions stronger. So that’s what happened: I was thinking that part of my restlessness was caused by excess mental energy, like if it was rebound mania: I was so…
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How I developed my third episode
Ok, that hasn’t been discussed yet. Somehow all three episodes are connected to issues with employment. The only difference is that in case of Home Group, and then the other employer – learning disability care provider – the employers were clearly to blame. With Fessey House the problem was, they seemed too good to be…
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Further report – 16.45
Taking zopiclone during the day didn’t put me to sleep but calmed me down a lot, without making me drowsy. I managed to draft my personal statement for uni application, it just needs to be re read and edited. And then Zoe, my care coordinator called to say what the plan is for the weekend…
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Now I want to express myself through art, but it has to be on a really large canvas and
The Range only had medium sizes. Small canvases were really suffocating but I felt I was being responsible by playing small when not having experience.
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Certain things should never had happened to me
Or anybody. But they did. How do I continue – life: sh*t plus sh*t. I want more but can’t never get it. Ever. I’m not British enough and too autistic. And not very lucky but still lucky enough to get through it somehow.
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I diagnosed myself with rebound mania
I was stagnant for too long. Is taking zopiclone during the day a good idea? I just did. Will I sink in the bath tube? God forbid! How long for? Please!
Autistic and me 