Tag: mental health
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Autism or borderline personality disorder?
I just read an article on Polish website about female who had mental health problems for several years before she received correct diagnosis. When I read that description I was convinced the diagnosis was autism, but not, it was borderline personality disorder. Mind you, I obviously have no idea what it is that she has, […]
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‘Mum, I can’t come over now’
That’s what I was thinking today about my trip to Poland. That I wanted to tell mum that I won’t be coming due to the difficult situation there and I wanted to hear her say that that’s ok and she’ll cope. Those thoughts came to me a few times and every time it took me […]
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I had a bath
And I feel a bit better. I am hoping that I will be able to sleep tonight without olanzapine again. I do not feel too triggered, thank god, but I am not totally calm either. I finally realised I cannot go to Poland and also, that possibly I need my sick note extended. It’s a […]
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I want to be the breave one!
I still feel really panicky. It seems to me like two hostels bookings not working out is a sign that I should stay (notification) but at the same time I feel like I really want to go, to help my country and our neighbours who are stuck there. I know I won’t be able to […]
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I’m cleaning
After deciding to take an Ukrainian refugee I am surprised to feel like I gained some control of the situation. Which is obviously not true, the situation of the people of Ukraine will be exactly the same, but I feel better, so that is something. Today it was actually the first time when I cried […]
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Should I take a refugee?
I’ve been thinking, maybe when (and if) I go to Poland, I should find an Ukrainian refugee to bring back with me? I would need to tidy up the spare room, but it’s not too bad and I recently got rid of a massive armchair from there, that wasn’t very comfortable to sit on, so […]
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I just realised something (the importance of indirect communication)
When I realised I’m autistic and that there are levels of communication that I don’t get, I started paying more attention to what is being said in non direct way. For that I didn’t need anyone to prompt me (I described here a while ago how my diagnostician prompted me to see other people perspectives). […]
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Trying to outsmart my brain
Seriously, this is getting annoying. I kind of managed to calm myself down yesterday by reading about those cell counting devices, but I was still alert till really late. I ended up having 2.5h of sleep, and I’m obviously very tired, but still I feel like my brain is doing ‘that’ to me. I mean, […]
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I’m allocating myself a reward
I’m on my way from the local radio station, and I must say the chat with the manager went really well. I will write more about it later, possibly even tomorrow, after I put things into perspective, but for now I wanted to say that I had a feeling like I want to allocate myself […]
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What is the difference between mental and physical tiredness?
The first time I came accross the term mental tiredness was when I started reading about autism. Only then I realised what I was going through every time when I had loads happening in my life: once in a while I had to spend an entire day in bed doing absolutely nothing and the next […]
Autistic and me 