Tag: symbols
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Inspector Love
When I got sectioned in 2019, during my second episode, it was in my own flat, which is against the law in the UK. Six males police officers were dragging me down the stairs in handcuffs while my heavily pregnant deputy manager was watching this. Btw, I need to add the post about what caused…
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Was getting engaged my quest?
I already commented on, what I think is John’s quest in our dating game, but I now wonder if I didn’t have one too? To get engaged. Married would be a bit more difficult as we would need to organise somewhere to live together and also it has long term serious consequences while engaged is…
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I want to be the breave one!
I still feel really panicky. It seems to me like two hostels bookings not working out is a sign that I should stay (notification) but at the same time I feel like I really want to go, to help my country and our neighbours who are stuck there. I know I won’t be able to…
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Archetypal war vs down to earth war
It’s 23.52 now. I can’t sleep, as usual when I try to work out what is going on. So I’ve been thinking about this phenomenon where on one side you have this enormous willingness of British public to take Ukrainian refugees into their homes and, what looks like almost no Ukrainians wanting to go. Some…
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Is it safe to go to Poland?
I’m flying on the 18th. I check news several times a day and I’m prepared to change my plans if needed. But I don’t really think Putin would attack Poland. Poland is part of NATO so, I assume, he would be concerned of repercussions. I also believe he’s a narcissist and, as he’s playing a…
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I want to go home
I so much feel like I want to go to my family home now. It’s so strange that, even though my family was definitely troubled, I still found visits there relaxing. Obviously, except the last one, where I had to go to a hostel after a few days because I couldn’t look at my brother…
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I’m feeling very tired
I did 12h shift yesterday and 6h early shift today. I didn’t get enough sleep yesterday as it was difficult for me to relax after coming home and today I had to wake up early. So in total I had probably 5h of sleep last night. Yet, I’m still coping. I’m in the middle of…
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I cried today
For just a few minutes. First time since I found out my mum died. It was really strange. Someone from my village post a photo of another lady from our village, a tiny bit younger than my mum, with a note that her funeral will be on Wednesday. My mum’s funeral is tomorrow, Tuesday and…
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I’m getting bitter, I suppose
This is, I think, how my mum’s death affects me (and I’m sorry, I don’t like ‘passed away’ expression, it doesn’t sound definite enough for me, like if the person may still come back). I don’t miss her. I guess I got used to the fact that I’d never speak to her again, we’d never…
Autistic and me 