Tag: autism characteristics
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I’m a scared little blogger
I don’t tell people that I blog. It’s probably because I don’t want any questions around it or to create more misunderstandings. It seems like the perception of a blogger is that we’re always happy, confident, know what to say and if we experience any negative emotions it’s only for a few minutes, and we…
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I feel so independent now
Don’t get me wrong, my mum was a lovely person, and very helpful. But I often felt like she was holding me hostage. It was very subtle and quite possibly a neurotypical person wouldn’t really notice that or coped with it better. I felt she was constantly worrying about me and wanted me to prove…
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Am I totally normal?
I went on a trip to Oxford. Is that a normal thing to do 4 days after one receives a message about their mum death? Well, I don’t know, but I guess as I’m autistic, I can’t be normal, can I? I first went to that Lebanon restaurant called Comptoir Lebanais, it’s a place full…
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I’m getting bitter, I suppose
This is, I think, how my mum’s death affects me (and I’m sorry, I don’t like ‘passed away’ expression, it doesn’t sound definite enough for me, like if the person may still come back). I don’t miss her. I guess I got used to the fact that I’d never speak to her again, we’d never…
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Can blogging be solution to my every problem (I’m not a loser from Eastern Europe)
Well, I am from Eastern Europe, definitely, but I’m not a loser, does that make sense? And yet, some people treat me like one. Don’t get me wrong, most British people are lovely, but not all. Some ask strange questions like for example ‘How come you have two bedroom flat if you’re single?’ They’re not…
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I feel so alone now
So that’s what happened: I have no family now. My brother is not a family, he can’t offer me any support – even now, in this difficult situation he says to call him tomorrow. I wonder if he comes for a funeral, although he apparently went to dad’s. Or at least that’s what mum said.…
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I feel incredibly sad (also, how to have casual sex if you’re autistic)
I have a feeling that I already made a post with this title but then I can’t come up with anything else – I do feel incredibly sad. The last couple of days I was so focused that it was almost like being in a trance – I didn’t do anything except of thinking what…
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Omg, what have I done?
Ok, so I was going to blog about sexuality for a little bit now, but it was difficult to make this shift. I don’t know what people will think about me now, but then, if I see an article about sex, do I think anything bad about the person who wrote it? No, I don’t.…
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Avoid casual sex
Ok, this is another thing that society understands in a completely different way than me. And it’s not about having double standards, that sex when you feel attraction is ok and one when you are just horny and want to get laid is not. Any sex is ok as long as it’s not rape. But…
Autistic and me 