Tag: patterns
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I’m in Portland!
I finally got in! At 8pm, which is 6 and half an hour after I left home. I had a little stopover in Bath Spa as my train from Swindon was delayed and I missed my connection to Weymouth by 3 minutes! I had to wait 2 hours for another train. As annoying as it…
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Is it possible to forget how to work?
I feel a bit moody today and like if I lost my confidence. The last couple of months were certainly good for my creativity and to get rid of stress I was under almost constantly but I also feel like I kept myself in my autistic bubble a lot (well, that is probably why I…
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Who is an artist?
I was wondering recently whether what I do with patterns can be called art. I don’t know how else to call it but art is a big word in Poland. To be an artist one needs to be really devoted and probably also starving. There is this expression though,’amateur artist’ that can be used for…
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I wish for an ordinary day
You know what, I’m seriously fed up with all those Bank Holidays, which is how days free of normal working patterns are called in the UK. First of all I don’t understand the word ‘bank’ – where does it come from, I have no idea. Moreover, no one who I asked had any idea either.…
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I’m such a lucky girl!
After publishing my last post – that one about punishment – it was brought to my attention that possibly what I am describing (recognising punishment where there is none) is not caused by my ability to recognise patterns but by my difficult childhood experiences. I’d like to discuss that further here. I did mention here…
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Obsession continues
I woke up at 4am today, which was not extremely early as I went to sleep before 9am yesterday. I am, however, wondering, if I start doing my patterns that early in the morning, will I not teach my brain that waking me up early will bring a reward? I wonder if brain can plan…
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My pursuit of patterns is making me unwell
I remember when I just started primary school, so I was 5 and a half, we were told to draw an autumn outdoor scene and suddenly I decided to add an unidentified object in the middle of my drawing: it was shaped like an egg, but it wasn’t meant to be an egg. It wasn’t…
Autistic and me 