You know what, I’m seriously fed up with all those Bank Holidays, which is how days free of normal working patterns are called in the UK. First of all I don’t understand the word ‘bank’ – where does it come from, I have no idea. Moreover, no one who I asked had any idea either. I could probably Google it but I’d rather wait for this knowledge to come to me in a more unexpected way.
Second of all I think it’s a bit excessive to have two extra days off only because Christmas happened during the weekend. And now we have another extra day off because New Year happened on Saturday. I wouldn’t probably mind if New Year was sometimes during the summer, but with it being just a few days after Christmas it’s all a bit excessive. I’m running low on milk and I don’t even know what time shops open and as I need lactose free variety I can’t just go to my local corner shop (which is BTW not on the corner at all).
I spent yesterday trying new effects in PicsArt and I am mildly pleased with the results. I mean, what I achieved is not perfect and I managed to make the image a bit grainy, which is not good of course, but the general idea is there: abstract shapes, lines, pattern and colours – all that I ever wanted to have in art. I will not be putting this image on my Instagram but sharing it here will be good way of documenting my creative process. And this blog is all meant to be about documenting and recording.
I would ideally like to go back to posting every day as it seems to make more sense if I use the blog for recording my thoughts and feelings but I’ll see how it goes as since I started creating my patterns words don’t come that easily to me, although I think it’s probably just temporary.
One thing that I noticed is that since I started doing my patterns, I experience much less negative emotions. I forgot to worry about the fact that my mum is coming towards the end of her life and how my life is going to look without her or about the fact that my brother may commit suicide. Those thoughts just don’t come to my mind any more, even though I feel slightly triggered, which I think is because my brain is still trying to work out how to work with all those images that I throw at it.
However, I continue to sleep well. Last week was a bit worse but the last two nights I slept full eight hours, without even waking up. I am back on doing exercises from Sleep School app. I was sure that my subscription was going to run out on the 1st of January, but the app is still working. I’d certainly pay to have access to it but if it works without me spending money on it that is certainly a nice thing.
Autistic and me 
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