Tag: mental health
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I can’t grieve
Possibly you find it strange that I post just after my mum died. But I’m not doing that for attention – I don’t get much of that from the blog. The purpose of the blog is to record how I feel and think but also to unload my emotions. Before I started blogging I used…
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I feel emotional
I’m back in my B&B after spending most of the day outside. Weymouth is beautiful. I had loads of walks, ate cake for lunch and drank large glass of wine in the afternoon. It was a good day overall. I may go out later again to get something to eat but it depends on how…
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I’m such a lucky girl!
After publishing my last post – that one about punishment – it was brought to my attention that possibly what I am describing (recognising punishment where there is none) is not caused by my ability to recognise patterns but by my difficult childhood experiences. I’d like to discuss that further here. I did mention here…
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My pursuit of patterns is making me unwell
I remember when I just started primary school, so I was 5 and a half, we were told to draw an autumn outdoor scene and suddenly I decided to add an unidentified object in the middle of my drawing: it was shaped like an egg, but it wasn’t meant to be an egg. It wasn’t…
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My mood (quick update)
This is just a very quick post to record the change in my mood: I felt very agitated in the morning today and even had to take diazepam, which was probably around 10am – it gave me some relief but not much and then later, around 1pm I suddenly felt really calm. I didn’t know…
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Feeling defeated
Yesterday I was planning to go for an employment open day to a certain care company and later for an appointment with my job coach from a disability service. Those were going to be my opportunities to talk about my blog in a context of employment. And what happened was, first thing in the morning…
Autistic and me 