Tag: emotions
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How I really feel?
Coping with bereavement feels so strange to me. I could never imagine that it will happen to me. Obviously, logically I knew, but I couldn’t imagine it. I feel scared at the moment, but I don’t know what I’m scared of. Probably not anything outside of me. Probably it’s just some internalised, general fear? Possibly…
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Hairstyling adventures (how I proved that I have empathy)
Ok, so I went for a haircut today. There is this place in the centre of Swindon where ladies can get a haircut for 14 pounds only, and it’s really sensible one, so I always go there. Also, as my hair is naturally wavy and it’s doing it’s own thing so it seems to me…
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Autism and emotions – Purple Ella
I just found this video made by Purple Ella, an autism advocate and entrepreneur. I find it very interesting when Ella said that when she feels negative emotions she needs to find a problem and will attribute this problem to that emotion and then tries to deal with this problem. It’s interesting that Ella knows…
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There will be no future
That’s how I feel right now – again. It’s 4.40am and it’s Monday. I only just woke up, after having a strange, disturbing dream: I visited my family home and, as I was walking through it, I felt that depressing energy that was trying to suck me in. It was like two black holes, one…
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I’m going anonymous
What happened today was that I went to work early in the morning, to a supported living place that I’ve been to before, and I found out that I’m not on the rota while my agency only sent me re-confirmation on Friday and today is Monday. I was also not on the rota for 24th.…
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Star wars (the first day after my ‘manifesting’ attempts)
I’m rushing to say that I feel quite ok today. The fear that I’ll spend the rest of my life in bed is mostly, although not entirely gone. It bothers me a little bit that visualisation is always associated with New Age, as this is certainly not what I am interested in and want to…
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My emotional instability
A lot of people seem to think that autistics are robotic and have no emotions. I think this belief is really damaging to us and I am not totally sure what causes it? I guess, perhaps the fact that we don’t communicate our emotions? Still, you would think that before making such an assumption one…
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‘You’re not that bad’
I remember, that was quite a few years ago, when I was under stress and tried to talk to someone and that’s what I’ve heard: You’re not that bad. So I asked ‘How do you know?’ ‘I can see that’ that person answered. I don’t remember the situation but I know that happened in the…
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Are emotions taboo?
That’s how I feel frequently. That, possibly, talking about emotions means we’re not coping. While saying ‘when my mum died I was off sick for two months’ is absolutely ok, describing the emotions that led us to go off sick is not. Feeling desperate is probably the most taboo of all the emotions out there.…
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I feel so incredibly alone
I woke up with this feeling of being incredibly alone. How would you call it? Is feeling alone an emotion? I think I’ll have a look at list of emotions later on and try to fit myself in somewhere. I had a strange dream during the night: me and some neighbours tried to catch my…
Autistic and me 