Tag: emotions
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I’m going anonymous
It has been a terribly difficult decision but I guess it’s what I have to do for now. I’m scared that my aptitude to writing the truth will cost me my job. It is difficult to say whether it’s true or not, but I guess, if I’m scared that means I need to take my…
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I can’t tell anybody that I miss my mum
That’s how I feel now: I would like to call mum and tell her that I miss her after she died. Sorry, I really do not like the ‘passed away’ expression, it seems to me like this term suggests that she’s going to come back. I try to use it, but when I really miss…
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Star wars (the first day after my ‘manifesting’ attempts)
I’m rushing to say that I feel quite ok today. The fear that I’ll spend the rest of my life in bed is mostly, although not entirely gone. It bothers me a little bit that visualisation is always associated with New Age, as this is certainly not what I am interested in and want to…
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My emotional instability
A lot of people seem to think that autistics are robotic and have no emotions. I think this belief is really damaging to us and I am not totally sure what causes it? I guess, perhaps the fact that we don’t communicate our emotions? Still, you would think that before making such an assumption one…
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Will the depression go away by itself?
When I received the phone call about my mum, I was just in the middle of writing a post about sexuality. I left it then but I finished a day or two later. Four days later I went on a trip to Oxford. I thought I was coping. I was surprised by that but I…
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‘You’re not that bad’
I remember, that was quite a few years ago, when I was under stress and tried to talk to someone and that’s what I’ve heard: You’re not that bad. So I asked ‘How do you know?’ ‘I can see that’ that person answered. I don’t remember the situation but I know that happened in the…
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Are emotions taboo?
That’s how I feel frequently. That, possibly, talking about emotions means we’re not coping. While saying ‘when my mum died I was off sick for two months’ is absolutely ok, describing the emotions that led us to go off sick is not. Feeling desperate is probably the most taboo of all the emotions out there.…
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I feel so incredibly alone
I woke up with this feeling of being incredibly alone. How would you call it? Is feeling alone an emotion? I think I’ll have a look at list of emotions later on and try to fit myself in somewhere. I had a strange dream during the night: me and some neighbours tried to catch my…
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Emotional integrity| Psychology Today
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/childhood-emotional-neglect/202202/6-signals-relationship-lacks-emotional-integrity I keep having an impression recently that Psychology Today is full of bullshit. I just read this article about emotional integrity, which is the state where we understand our emotions and clearly communicate them to others, yet the article doesn’t mention alexithymia, which is inability to understand our own emotions. Autistics are very often…
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Managing my emotions
As I said in my previous post I used to be interested in managing my emotions a lot in the past. Not that I noticed it brought me any benefits. At the same time I learned already that denying having difficult emotions is going to make me feel worse. Have anyone heard about emotional intelligence…
Autistic and me 