Tag: mum
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Finally adulting
That’s a title for the challenge on Redecor: a guy got himself a washing machine and he feels that makes him an adult. I have washing machine and even my own flat for quite a few years already and yet I only recently started feeling like I’m really ‘adulting’. My mum can’t help me with…
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Perhaps, perhaps…
I visited mum today, at 11am, as usual, as it’s easy to arrange and remember that I need to take a bus which is exactly at 10.30. She didn’t seem very alert and at some point insisted on me taking her laundry home because ‘no one will do it here’, she also told me she…
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The Innocent Guys
I did mention in my previous post that since I started blogging about my emotions I started seeing flashback of text in my head occasionally and it’s something that relates to my life. ‘The Innocent Guys’ is what I saw just a few minutes ago. I suppose it could be a good name for vegan…
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Mum and her gut feelings
Mum told me today that she has a gut feeling that everything will be well. She wasn’t sure at all what that could mean exactly and when that could happen, just that it will. Sometimes I think her entire understanding of reality is based on gut feelings as she just doesn’t understand facts. I remember…
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Visited mum
Mum was very quiet again today and her hands were shaking a bit. I asked her what she wanted me to do when we run out of money for that care home and she said she cannot think straight. She still says she likes there much better and she didn’t moan about my brother at…
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My suicide attempt
I hope this won’t be triggering for anybody so first of all, let me clarify that I didn’t really want to die. And yet, I took 18 lorazepams at once. I actually thought I took 19 but the 19th was still in the box, although the seal was broken. The box contained 20 and I…
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Is my mum hinting me?
Two days ago, when I visited mum for the first time in her new care home, she told me she wants to live in Poland, unless it’s impossible, then she’ll go back to mine again. It sounded to me like expectation Mind you, she didn’t say ‘In Smardzewice’, where our family home is, just ‘in…
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Hotel quality care home?
Despite of me worrying mum would not want to spend her savings on a care home, she seems to enjoy this bit of luxury. I was allowed to see her in the room today, as the other two beds are vacant; yes, multiple occupancy bedrooms are standard in care homes here, whether government ones or…
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Care standards
One of mum’s pressure sores is quite bad, it looks like all the skin has been peeled off of her heel. I’m shocked that the old care home didn’t even inform me. I was really thinking they are taking good care of her. Surprisingly mum said she started liking the new care home and how…
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Things went fairly well
Mum was transferred to her new care home today and it seemed to went well, despite me panicking due to having little control. I was not allowed in to check her bags and I’m not sure whether she had her glasses with her. I was also not able to check that in the new care…
Autistic and me 