Tag: mental health
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What is a home worth?
1. I went on Zoopla yesterday just to see house prices, in case I wanted to move at some point. I mean, this is if I convince John to move to Swindon and if I don’t, I’m staying where I am. On their website I saw that line of text: we know what a home…
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I need a change of scenery
1. Me and John decided yesterday that it will be better if I don’t go to Poland for the time being. I am quite worried about the war in Ukraine, maybe not necessarily that Putin is going to attack other countries (although who knows with him? I wouldn’t count on him being logical and down…
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Good mental health and creativity
So, as stated here multiple times, my blog is to record how I’m thinking and feeling. It’s been two weeks now since I started my digital detox (and approximately 10 days without Facebook) and my mental health and energy levels weren’t that good for ages. I also haven’t been working the last two weeks, but…
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My psychiatric nurse is leaving
I saw my psychiatric nurse yesterday and she said she’s leaving. I am quite sad about it. I really liked her. I’m however a bit confused if she’s going to leave for sure, just because of the way she’s said that – that she will be working ‘in one of the surgeries’ which then made…
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Emotional regulation for autistics
I did wonder on my blog a couple of times what it means that autistic people have difficulties with emotional regulation, and neurotypicals find it easier. I never found any explanation for how neurotypicals do that and it did sound to me like after several minutes of being upset they just tell themselves ‘ok, it’s…
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Having anxiety attack
I don’t really know how that happened. I was watching a film online that had some abstract art featured and I felt like I wanted to do a few new patterns, but that didn’t work very well and I started worrying about how I’m going to cope with life now, when mum is no longer…
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I had a dream that my mum simulated her own death (should I be talking meds ‘for autism’?)
Last night I had that dream: I was in Poland and mum was with me. She was able to walk and speak normally. I don’t know how I found her but at some point I started wondering how come she’s alive and where she actually lives if I cancelled her care home payments. Then neighbours…
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Playing ‘the cute one’
Yesterday Disability Confident event went well and it tuned out that deciding not to practice my speech was a good choice – I was going to talk about my life so I knew what I wanted to say. If I tried to practice I’d get fixated on using the exact same words instead of delivering…
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Ok, I’m calming down (and don’t have PTSD)
Shortly after publishing the previous post I realised I actually did the right thing by not mentioning the issue I have with dresses on the radio show yesterday. So first I need to explain the situation with that ex colleague who made that unkind comment about me needing to shop for dresses in the tall…
Autistic and me 