Tag: The Boyfriend
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My parents’ house
Recently me and John decided to get married. My relationship status on Facebook has been ‘engaged’ for around two years now and I was going to be happy with it without getting married. Do you find it weird? ‘Engaged’ sounds more serious than ‘in a relationship’ and it was all I wanted. But one day,…
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‘They’ sent a letter
Yesterday around 10am, when I was awake for a few hours but still in my pj, relaxing in bed, someone knocked on my door. I went downstairs (I live in a first floor maisonette), opened the door and saw a man in his 30s. ‘They sent a letter to me to this address’ he said…
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Can intention shape our lives?
It’s almost Easter. John is coming over tomorrow but only for a couple of hours as I don’t feel very well mentally. Or possibly I should have said I didn’t feel very well till just a few days ago. I was depressed, but not hopeless and sad; it was very strange because my mood was…
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Adjusting to cold
I visited John for two days and I managed with temperature as low as 15C indoors while wearing only two layers of clothing. As I mentioned on my blog multiple times I am (I was?) oversensitive to cold. If temperature indoors was 21C I’d wear long sleeve vest, jumper and a cardigan and still didn’t…
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John said he missed me
And those two words made me feel like he really is on my side; like if he’s waiting for me to get better. You see, communicating with a depressed autistic person is really not that difficult. He also said I may need to go to a doctor. But I don’t want to; it would mean…
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To believe or not to believe?
I’m just reading ‘Dancing with Dementia’, a book by Christine Bryder, an author and advocate with young onset Alzheimer disease. Christine says at the beginning of the book that she asked her church group to pray for her shortly after her diagnosis and they did, they specifically decided to pray for her recovery. She was…
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Can I have some dopamine, please?
I keep trying to understand the role of dopamine in developing psychosis. Of course that is unlikely to happen as even scientists don’t understand the connection, they only assume dopamine causes psychosis. But if I’m on medication that reduces effects of dopamine in the brain and dopamine is responsible for brain reward system (at least…
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Dementia treatment dream
Yesterday evening I decided that I shouldn’t be sleeping on the sofa too often and went to the spare bedroom. I ‘only’ slept around 9h and woke up with a headache, one that I usually get when I’m about to have a cold. I got a bit annoyed, after all that time I was off…
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My significant other
I was filling in a student loan form online in the morning and I was asked to give next of kin details. Obviously that would be John but I didn’t know what to choose for him as fiance wasn’t on the list. Funny thing, the list was pretty extensive; I presume most people would choose…
Autistic and me 