Tag: brother
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Punished by my brother
So at first my brother ignored the fact that my mum needed a funeral, now, after being supported by the neighbour he made the decision: funeral is going to be on the 1st of February. It’s been already arranged with the priest and I found out from the neighbour. It doesn’t matter if I can…
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I wish for an ordinary day
You know what, I’m seriously fed up with all those Bank Holidays, which is how days free of normal working patterns are called in the UK. First of all I don’t understand the word ‘bank’ – where does it come from, I have no idea. Moreover, no one who I asked had any idea either.…
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I want my mum
I spoke with mum the first time in a bit today, as she wasn’t feeling good earlier. Nurses never asked me to speak with her regardless and I felt uncomfortable askig for it, also, if I have to be totally honest, I didn’t want to speak with her knowing that she may be unable to…
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I’m incredibly sad
My zucchini muffind look like black pudding and that wasn’t mentioned in the recipe. Recipie was from American website so maybe people in US don’t know what black pudding looks like or possibly their version looks different to Polish which is brown with grey ‘eyes’ made of buckwheat. So that’s how my muffins look like:…
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Dear neighbours
The beauty of living in a village in Poland is, that you have neighbours. Well, obviously, people who live almost anywhere in the world, also in the cities, have neighbours but Polish village neighbours seem to know everything about each other. My Smardzewice neighbours still have impact on my life even though I moved thousands…
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Complex family dynamics
Trigger warning: mentions possibility of suicide in the family I didn’t write about my brother for quite a while, I guess I maybe mentioned him once or twice since I had to leave our family home and move to the hostel back in September. He is not a glamorous person to write about: he is…
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I want to break free
That’s how I understand challenging behaviour. Challenging behaviour is not just something that autistic people with learning disability display, high functioning autistics can also do that, but ours are of course different. Arguing can be form of challenging behaviour and I was guilty of it more than once. I believe we do that to break…
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Hot afternoon
I keep walking outside of the hostel, enjoying hot weather and nice area around me but I keep thinking I should be with mum. That’s of course impossible due to Covid. The annoying thing is that number of infections is really low in the entire country. I guess it’s just a precaution but why now,…
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18.25 – I called mum!
I got enough courage today to call my mum. I felt really strange after I last tried to speak with her and she wasn’t replying. That put me off of calling her for good couple of days. Mum was really alert today which is obviously good. She wanted to know the truth about my brother…
Autistic and me 