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Feeling robotic
OK, so I decided the only real choice I’ve got is to continue to post but in a way that it’s true to how I’m feeling at the time. If I stop and wait till I feel some emotions it would just be another attempt to create a fake persona here, and this is not…
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900g of tracksuit bottoms
Mum’s parcel is finally ready and it’s supposed to be picked up tomorrow. Due to customs requirements I had to weigh what’s in it, and tops weigh 3.7kg while bottoms only 0.9kg – it looks like she really need some more bottoms, but I doubt I’d be sending them from here. It’s too much trouble…
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Complex family dynamics
Trigger warning: mentions possibility of suicide in the family I didn’t write about my brother for quite a while, I guess I maybe mentioned him once or twice since I had to leave our family home and move to the hostel back in September. He is not a glamorous person to write about: he is…
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I cancelled my shift
Around 2am it finally occurred to me that I won’t be able to continue as a hotel housekeeper, at least not in this hotel and not for so many hours. Especially after not having slept properly. So I emailed the guy from the agency to let him know that I won’t be back but I…
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Overworked and lonely
I woke up after barely 3h of sleep and can’t fall back asleep again. That means I overworked myself yesterday, that’s what always happens after I’ve been working too hard. I’m wondering if I should actually even go for another shift as it will be very difficult after yesterday and not having enough sleep. I…
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My body doesn’t exist (and how I understand symbols)
So, before I move on to what this post is going to be about, which is a bit embarrassing, I will start with explanation that I don’t really have much of an awareness of my physical body and therefore I don’t worry about my health too much. I don’t know how to explain that but…
Autistic and me 