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How is success achieved?
I spent over an hour reading through a peculiar website about equipment for ‘cell counting’. I didn’t really understand much, but I didn’t try to – it was just to see if reading through a material only to see a pattern is going to help me to calm down my brain. And it did, quite…
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Excitement equals danger
I’ve never been good at dealing with excitement. Or, to be precise, every time I feel excitement I ruin everything about the thing that excites me. It is very easy to say it’s self sabotage and, again, explain that it’s because I don’t believe I deserve good things happening to me (exactly what my counsellor…
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I’m allocating myself a reward
I’m on my way from the local radio station, and I must say the chat with the manager went really well. I will write more about it later, possibly even tomorrow, after I put things into perspective, but for now I wanted to say that I had a feeling like I want to allocate myself…
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Is asking questions the answer to everything?
I just received a newsletter from one of the business coach I signed up for during the couple of last weeks. It was about the fact that people don’t like those who are ‘salesy’ and instead, if we want something from another business person we should ask questions. And I found it so terrible confusing!…
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It was a difficult day
I think my emotions finally woke up and I find it difficult to manage them. I mean, I’d probably look perfectly normal to you, as an autistic person at least – I spent almost entire day playing my block sudoku game. I’m quite scared of putting it away, I think it may be because, when…
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Am I happy or unhappy? (Trying to coach myself)
As I’m thinking about ways to turn my blog into a full time job, I had a look at various coaching methods and took advantage of some free trainings. It seemed to me that they were all based on the ‘mindset’ principle, so basically if you believe it will happen, it will happen. I didn’t…
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The concept of ‘deserving’
It is said, that it’s us, autistics, who get social situations wrong. I wonder whether that extends to psychological and social concepts? But then, what about neurotypicals who seem to put how they feel above everything else, and especially above pure logic. Like this concept of ‘deserving’ good things in life. The events that I’d…
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My dream
I had a dream that I came to the care home to collect mum for leave. It took a while to get her meds right and I watched TV news while waiting, where I found out that my cousin, who is a nurse, was taken to employment tribunal by her employer for being disrespectful to…
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What is the difference between mental and physical tiredness?
The first time I came accross the term mental tiredness was when I started reading about autism. Only then I realised what I was going through every time when I had loads happening in my life: once in a while I had to spend an entire day in bed doing absolutely nothing and the next…
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Love type D
I’m just watching the above film online and I still have an hour to go, but for now it’s absolutely hilarious. It’s strange that films that I never heard about can be so good, but those that are popular end up being boring and cliché for me. Do you think that has anything to do…
Autistic and me 