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I’m getting bitter, I suppose
This is, I think, how my mum’s death affects me (and I’m sorry, I don’t like ‘passed away’ expression, it doesn’t sound definite enough for me, like if the person may still come back). I don’t miss her. I guess I got used to the fact that I’d never speak to her again, we’d never…
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Can blogging be solution to my every problem (I’m not a loser from Eastern Europe)
Well, I am from Eastern Europe, definitely, but I’m not a loser, does that make sense? And yet, some people treat me like one. Don’t get me wrong, most British people are lovely, but not all. Some ask strange questions like for example ‘How come you have two bedroom flat if you’re single?’ They’re not…
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‘Everyone does that’
I was writing this post when I received the phone call from my mum’s care home. I then left it but then I thought, I may as well finish it and grieve afterwards. This one will be about the fact that creating society where having sex early is considered normal is not really that good.…
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I feel so alone now
So that’s what happened: I have no family now. My brother is not a family, he can’t offer me any support – even now, in this difficult situation he says to call him tomorrow. I wonder if he comes for a funeral, although he apparently went to dad’s. Or at least that’s what mum said.…
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I can’t grieve
Possibly you find it strange that I post just after my mum died. But I’m not doing that for attention – I don’t get much of that from the blog. The purpose of the blog is to record how I feel and think but also to unload my emotions. Before I started blogging I used…
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My mum died
Mum’s care home called me around 30 minutes ago and I kind of knew that was it. Possibly because they never call? If there was an issue, they emailed and told me to call them back. She was apparently doing ok, had her supper like every day and then… it was very sudden. I called…
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Should women ‘respect themselves’?
I was wondering whether to put this on my blog or not. It’s not a positive experience, but then, my story wouldn’t be complete if I would be constantly saying that men always treated me well. I was on a dating website for a couple of years before I met John and I spoke with…
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I feel incredibly sad (also, how to have casual sex if you’re autistic)
I have a feeling that I already made a post with this title but then I can’t come up with anything else – I do feel incredibly sad. The last couple of days I was so focused that it was almost like being in a trance – I didn’t do anything except of thinking what…
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Should we have sex on a third date? (How to use social rules to test people)
Having sex on a third date is considered normal. Of course some people have it earlier that that, even before actually going on a date at all. Going for the third date rule may work for neurotypical women because they have the ability to communicate their intentions in nonverbal way. However, we, autistics, don’t do…