Autistic and me

My first uni assignment

I have almost three weeks to submit it and I hope a miracle will happen during this time because I have no idea how to approach it. The purpose of the assignment is to create my own care plan and then offer a critique of person centered care model. This just doesn’t add up to…

Magda Z.

October 22, 2022

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autism characteristics, education, social care

I want to have a child

I’m not quite sure what happened; I was reading yet another book about dementia and I realised suddenly that having a family is a good thing. I presume this realisation could only happen for me when the family I was brought up in stopped existing. Yes, there still is my alcoholic brother but I don’t…

Magda Z.

October 21, 2022

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brother, dad, mum, social imagination

Should I apologise to my neighbours?

1. Those kind of things always confused me: is it better to apologise for something you did unintentionally or maybe it’s better to pretend I forgot? As you may know the floor in my flat is really poor quality, I have installed soundproofing boards in my main bedroom but I recently mostly sleep in my…

Magda Z.

October 20, 2022

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employment, mental health, sensory issues, social imagination, social media

I dont understand academic writing – part 2

John pointed out to me yesterday that possibly I don’t understand academic writing because I don’t fully understand the discussed concepts yet. This cannot be excluded so, to check, I found a paper about storytelling. Storytelling is easy and something that I did quite a few times, I also read some books about how to…

Magda Z.

October 18, 2022

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communication, education

Can I express my opinions?

What I’m going to describe here is an example of situations that make me overthink. As you may know I signed up for a university course, Msc in Dementia. I started around two weeks late as course already started when I just only got the idea to apply. Every week we have a new topic…

Magda Z.

October 17, 2022

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communication, education, social imagination

Is stereotyping always a bad thing?

I did complain on the blog several times that I hate when people stereotype me and when it’s the British who do that I consider it to be racism. I didn’t change my mind about it, as yet. I doubt I ever do. However, two days ago I started reading a book Qualitative Research by…

Magda Z.

October 17, 2022

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autism characteristics, racism, social imagination

Family conflict around meds

I wonder if other people experience that too? John is like a family to me and apart from that I don’t have anyone really (it’s sad, isn’t it?), but I suppose similar issues may appear with living in partner or a husband. So basically he would like me to find a meds that really work…

Magda Z.

October 16, 2022

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mental health, psychosis, social imagination, The Boyfriend

I mustn’t eat those mince pies

John came over and brought some mince pies. Normally I’d have one after dinner but the thought I need to go back on olanzapine made me realise something: I have to learn to say no to food! Otherwise I’ll explode one day or at least won’t be able to get through the door. When I…

Magda Z.

October 15, 2022

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mental health, psychosis, relationship with food, The Boyfriend

Olanzapine meltdown

So I decided, at the end, that aripiprazole was not a drug I can stay on. It seemed to make me really good at the beginning but this is long gone now. When I have a good night sleep I am moreless ok, but if I don’t, I just end up walking around my flat…

Magda Z.

October 15, 2022

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employment, mental health, social imagination

Aripiprazole is ‘activating’

Unless you can’t sleep, then it’s agitating. And what I mean by that is, two nights of very poor sleep and I’m too tired to think clearly, yet still quite energetic. So what I do? Walk around my flat in circles. I do worry the story from my first episode may repeat – funilly enough…

Magda Z.

October 14, 2022

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mental health, psychosis