Tag: infinite games
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Trading for autistics
I’m still depressed. Did I tell you that I only recently accepted the fact that I have bipolar? John visited me but only for a few hours. I gave him his birthday present which was coffee from London Nootropics, two sets, one of them was mushroom coffee. I assumed that if John likes both mushrooms…
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I’m not a role model, am I?
When I started blogging that was how I saw it: I wanted to use this platform to somehow give other autistic people guidance on how to live their life and to do that I felt I needed to improve myself first. What happened instead I turned the blog into journal. Is it useful? I don’t…
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This option is not available. Trigger warning
It came to a point that I Googled assisted death in Netherlands. Unfortunately I don’t experience ‘unbearable suffering with no prospect of improvement’. It feels unbearable at times but I didn’t really try to improve my mental health. Anyway, as I said on the blog a few times, I believe my suicidal thoughts are a…
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Smart Goals vs Valued Directions
https://mentalhealthathome.org/2022/02/28/setting-goals-valued-directions/#comment-79730 This is a very interesting post by Ashley Peterson. Ashley discusses Valued Directions which is a concept from Acceptance and Commitment Therapy (the same thing that Sleep School is based on) and they are alternative to goal setting. It’s interesting to also read about ‘dead person values’ – if a dead person can do…
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Focusing on obstacles
When I’m stressed I focused on obstacles more than on the end result. Even when the issue is small, in my mind it becomes a massive problem. Just today I had to order pressure sores dressings for mum (meds are not free for seniors in Poland, like they are in the UK) so I found…
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Struggling
Trigger warning: this post mentions suicidal thoughts. I read online that talking about suicidal thoughts doesn’t make people any more likely to act on them but I know some readers prefer trigger warnings, and that’s absolutely fine. My severely bad mood started two days ago, after I realised I have almost everything sorted. I think,…
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Worried again
I woke up terribly worried again about my mum: her wellbeing, her care home, her pressure sores and the fact I need to get dressings but don’t know which size to get. Also I need to deliver her medical history to her care home but I don’t know where to get it from, whether it…
Autistic and me 