Autistic and me

autism characteristics, Baron-Cohen

A day outdoors

I spent a significant time outdoors today, that was because me favourite hostel wasn’t available. Did I tell you that I had to move somewhere else for the weekend as the first hostel, that is by the river, was fully booked by a group that came to do kayaking. I had to check out on…

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being social

Risks taking

I used to like taking risks sometimes. The problem was, however, that as a result I would often end up in trouble. Not always but often. The most horrid mess that I put myself through was the result of my employment tribunal case against Home Group. Despite having evidence that there were fabricated documents in…

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naive, psychosis

What I’m really worried about

I asked myself what it is that I’m so worried about and in response I saw my mum being dragged into a whirpool of something thick and sticky and I knew I won’t be able to get her out. I suppose it was a whirpool of care system and it meant she’ll never be able…

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communication, mum, naive, psychosis

Care system in Poland

After getting a place in government care home in Poland the person will have 70 percent of their pension deducted towards the cost of that place and then family is expected to contribute, depending on how much they earn. If needed government pays the rest. The full price of government care home may be very…

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Poland, psychosis

I want to break free

That’s how I understand challenging behaviour. Challenging behaviour is not just something that autistic people with learning disability display, high functioning autistics can also do that, but ours are of course different. Arguing can be form of challenging behaviour and I was guilty of it more than once. I believe we do that to break…

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September 10, 2021

brother, challenging behaviour

I feel guilty

I can’t help but feel guilty for simple things that are not directly connected to issues I came here to deal with: having a walk in the sunshine, ice-cream, bottle of coke. Before I came here I was on Universal Credit for around a month and I was making an effort to survive on 2…

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challenging behaviour, mental health, psychosis, unemployment

Hot afternoon

I keep walking outside of the hostel, enjoying hot weather and nice area around me but I keep thinking I should be with mum. That’s of course impossible due to Covid. The annoying thing is that number of infections is really low in the entire country. I guess it’s just a precaution but why now,…

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brother, mum

My last job

I was sacked from my last job. I explained that a bit in my last post. And I don’t mean the job for Home Group here, Home Group didn’t sack me, I left. My last job was in a care home. I found it a bit difficult working there full time. I like taking care…

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coping, naive, unemployment

Not seeing things from other people perspective

We sometimes hear that autistic people don’t have empathy. But I know it’s not true. When I see my mum, so tiny in her hospital bed, I can see how vulnerable she is and I want to protect her. We just can’t see things from other people perspective. When I first found out she had…

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