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8.35am – am I autistic enough
That’s what I’m wondering about sometimes. I describe ‘normal life’ here, even though having a massive leak in the kitchen, being victim of fraud or serious workplace harassment is certainly not normal, but I guess you may know what I mean: I don’t write about sensory issues (even though I’m oversensitive to noise), I don’t…
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7.45am
I am suddenly angry at mum, thinking why she couldn’t get the grip of what was happening with her money. Why? But then, that’s who she was. She couldn’t do tax return (they are compulsory in here) even when she was younger. She was however very good at asking people to do things for her…
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5am
I’m laying in bed and thinking about my life and my mental health. I’m currently not the happiest person in the world and that brings up difficult memories. When I had my second psychotic episode I got sectioned and I got absolutely petrified that I’d be put in Home Group property to recover. Thank God,…
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Where I’m staying
The hostel is really on the outskirts but it is a beautiful place. I don’t regret at all that I am staying here. Walking to the kitchen to get milk for my morning coffee is an amazing start of the day. I thought I’d feel strange in an empty building but I got used to…
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Second attempt
This is my second attempt at blogging. The first time was when I had Employment Tribunal claim against Home Group. I found it very difficult at the time, my mind was constantly focused on the claim but I didn’t want to write about it so I quickly ended up struggling with ideas. I only managed…
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Sensory
I went back to the same park, it is almost directly outside of the shopping centre and I spend some time looking at fountains. It was very relaxing. After that I moved towards the area where the outdoor art is displayed and spent a few minutes touching it. The images are painted on massive paricle…
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Difficult memories
I’m in Galeria Tomaszów, our most modern shopping centre, only built a few years ago. Shops are closed but restaurants, cafes and children play area are open. I bought an ice cream and a drink and I’m currently sitting on a fake leather round sofa. It’s not very busy, which is good. Being here reminds…
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Exploring
I did some walking again, had a burger for lunch and then ended up in the same park as yesterday. The fact that government decided shops need to be closed on Sundays doesn’t seem to keep people active: the park is pretty much empty, even though weather is really good and it’s even possible it’s…
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Counselling for autistics
I found a blog post by Lisa Markwell, a counsellor from London describes very well my own experience of counselling: being misunderstood, suggesting past trauma is the reason for my difficulties and insisting on helping me when I felt absolutely fine while ignorong areas that I felt I needed help with. It’s really worth reading…
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Noise
I was woken up by some noise, like if someone was walking (there’s another person in the hostel) and I thought it was my dad. He used to walk through the house at night when other people were sleeping. And then I realised I’m not at home and my dad died a year and a…
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Autistic and me 