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‘You don’t want your autism to define you’
That was a piece of advice a fellow autistic from one of my Facebook groups has been given by a neurotypical family member after being diagnosed. She didn’t know what it meant, I bet it was just a neurotypical way of saying ‘I hope you’re not going to change too much now, after you’ve been…
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Easter food
Ok, Easter was a few weeks ago but I only finished my chocolate egg at the end of last week. Also around Easter I decided I have to try to eat a bit more, maybe I’m not loosing weight because I eat too little, I thought – yes, I did hear those theories. Possibly though…
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Serious case of overthinking (but I need it)
It’s cold in the UK so I used that as an excuse to stay in and work on imagining my radio show. I mean it’s not that I’m just thinking about it: I read a book (£1.77 for a Kindle edition), had a look at some websites about running a radio station (even though I’m…
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Disabling language
I read a few times, here and there, that neurotypicals have instinct that they use to talk to people, to connect with them and to manage social situations in general. That did sound a lot like we’re, autistics, are hopeless in those area. I accepted it like that when I read it. It even made…
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Emotional regulation for autistics
I did wonder on my blog a couple of times what it means that autistic people have difficulties with emotional regulation, and neurotypicals find it easier. I never found any explanation for how neurotypicals do that and it did sound to me like after several minutes of being upset they just tell themselves ‘ok, it’s…
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Having anxiety attack
I don’t really know how that happened. I was watching a film online that had some abstract art featured and I felt like I wanted to do a few new patterns, but that didn’t work very well and I started worrying about how I’m going to cope with life now, when mum is no longer…
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The importance of imperfect communication
As everyone knows already, autistics may sometimes say things that sound inappropriate, and this is because we don’t realise how what we’re saying is perceived. That doesn’t necessarily mean what we say is what we really think. I should be speaking for myself here but I assume this may also be an experience of other…
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I had a dream that my mum simulated her own death (should I be talking meds ‘for autism’?)
Last night I had that dream: I was in Poland and mum was with me. She was able to walk and speak normally. I don’t know how I found her but at some point I started wondering how come she’s alive and where she actually lives if I cancelled her care home payments. Then neighbours…
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Playing ‘the cute one’
Yesterday Disability Confident event went well and it tuned out that deciding not to practice my speech was a good choice – I was going to talk about my life so I knew what I wanted to say. If I tried to practice I’d get fixated on using the exact same words instead of delivering…
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Are we allowed to speak the truth about how certain autism support techniques make us feel?
I may make a longer post about the radio disability event tomorrow as I am rather shocked about something else now and feel like I want to discuss that instead, however the event went well and it turned out that not practicing my speech was a good choice. What I wanted to talk about now…