A few weeks ago I posted to Tomaszów Facebook group asking if there is anyone there who’s money also got stolen by Mrs J but I didn’t get a sensible response. Someone reached out claiming he can help me get the money back and he said that ‘his neighbour is a lawyer’. I decided to opt out for now.

I don’t suppose the way I think about the fraud is very helpful and logical, even though I’m a logical person most of the time. Well, I suppose I’m logical when I see somebody else struggle, but not when it’s me who is struggling.

I suppose, as an autistic, I see my parents’ land as a symbol of prosperity, as mum was always saying that one day it will be mine. As an autistic I’m focused on symbols because this is what I can easily understand. That’s why the fraud feels like if my prosperity has been taken away from me. I know it’s not true and as long as I get a job I’ll be ok, but I find it difficult to just move on.

So it’s not a life changing sum but I can’t change my thinking. Unless… unless I imagine that the part that has been stolen went to my brother and I just never did anything about it. No more contact with the bank, no more contact with the police, just total silence.

I also know that, no matter how much money we will get back, it will always feel wrong, it won’t be the same money that has been stolen.

Let me clarify that here: it’s not excessive amout of money, it wouldn’t even be enough to put deposit for a house.

I’m not very logical, am I?

I’d really like to speak with other victims and hear how they feel. It seems like I’m alienated and alone.