I somehow started feeling a relief. Still don’t know what to do next, or at least not exactly but I think being unable to see mum is allowing me to think more clearly. She’d definitely say no to a private care home, she’ll probably even say no to the one that she’s in now and would go for my brother’s offer of ‘taking care’ of her. She’d think that means he’s going to change, but he won’t.

The Boyfriend is being very supportive, responding to my emails promptly but I noticed that posting on my website really helps. I imagine someone is reading it and is on my side, and whoever you are, thank you.