Mum told me today that she has a gut feeling that everything will be well. She wasn’t sure at all what that could mean exactly and when that could happen, just that it will.

Sometimes I think her entire understanding of reality is based on gut feelings as she just doesn’t understand facts.

I remember how, around 10 years ago, we went to Paris and she claimed she had a feeling how to get to Moulin Rouge when I tried to work it out with a map. She also used to have gut feelings about her favourite bank employee, this one who’s in prison now for fraud.

My mum is certainly not autistic but I suspect she may have ADD (like ADHD but without hyperactivity), she has natural talent for missing the point: doesn’t understand what is being said exacty, misinterprets what’s on the news, has problems with filling in forms. We are completely different. I am much more like my late dad. I do admit I would at times want her to be more like me, but better, so that I could live up to her.

I can see how that can easily be explained by her being elderly, but she was always like that, since I remember. At the same time however I can see her memory is not as good as it used to be.