Autistic and me

Waiting to get deported (my aripiprazole adventures)

Still not sure if I spell aripiprazole correctly. What if Google won’t pick it up an no one will ever find my blog, except of those 5 people who read it regularly? Anyway, as I said, I was put on aripiprazole in the hospital and felt fantastic on it for a week; what I mean […]

Magda Regula

October 2, 2022

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communication, mental health, psychosis, racism, sexuality, workplace bullying

Taxi driver communication adventures

1. I’m enjoying my spare bedroom. Not that I slept much (it’s 6am) and I can hear neighbour coughing slightly (I’m not wearing earplugs at the moment) but I like the vibe it gives me. It feels like spare bedroom is good for when I feel the need to escape the world a little bit, […]

Magda Regula

October 1, 2022

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British public, communication, detecting bullshit, social imagination

Instagram reciprocity

Yesterday one of my favourite artists shared a photo of painting that I particularly liked. It does seem to me her technique keeps improving so I liked and commented on it with just one word – ‘amazing’. I really thought it was, you know? For that she liked and commented on one of my latest […]

Magda Regula

October 1, 2022

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communication

Finishing supportive conversation

I already wrote about it once, but from a different context. I will not be linking that post as I’d simply be unable to find it but it’s somewhere under communication tag 🙂 Several minutes ago I post to local females Facebook group and asked if any ladies there are mature students (yes, I got […]

Magda Regula

September 30, 2022

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communication, neurotypicals

I’m decluttering

I got rid of almost all art suppliers. It makes me anxious. But I can now use my spare bedroom. I will probably sleep in it today, or at least I’ll try. I remember how a year ago I used to write quite dramatic posts from my bed in a hostel in Tomaszów. Anxiety over […]

Magda Regula

September 30, 2022

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coping, mental health

Do you remember how I said…

That I’m on speech and language therapy delivered by the community? I really believed it. But now I don’t. Not really, I mean it’s difficult to say. Everyone’s communication skills improved that much recently. But maybe it was my communication that improved first and people react differently now? I don’t understand. What is interesting though […]

Magda Regula

September 27, 2022

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autism characommunication, autism characteristics, autistic identity, mental health, my diagnostician, psychosis, workplace bullying

I never learned how to deal with the feeling of really wanting something

It just my life circumstances didn’t really allowed it, since I was a child, through adolescence and adulthood. Now I feel like aripiprazole makes my real emotions stronger. So that’s what happened: I was thinking that part of my restlessness was caused by excess mental energy, like if it was rebound mania: I was so […]

Magda Regula

September 27, 2022

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education, mental health, The Boyfriend

Why I lost my job

Well, I need to do say that finally, don’t I? I lost my job because I was using mobile at work and I already had two warnings. It was obviously a bit more complicated than that and the whole problem started in 2018 on a staff Christmas party where all the three care homes staff […]

Magda Regula

September 26, 2022

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being social, detecting bullshit, employment, mental health, psychosis, social care

Procedures – Safety Engineering vs Social Care

As you may know, my fiance, John, who’s also autistic, works as a safety engineer. An inspector, if you prefer. That means he checks if people in his field follow safety procedures. The last two days we had this conversation about how procedures are approached in his field and in social care. I edited it […]

Magda Regula

September 25, 2022

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autism characteristics, British public, employment, racism, social care, systems, The Boyfriend

Can’t wait for my large canvases (should I just quit????)

As you may know I had rebound mania since just after leaving hospital on Thursday. While waiting to be discharged I decided to go to uni, chose a subject within like 2 minutes and the university within the next 30 seconds. And then, while already at home, I decided to provide confidence building training for […]

Magda Regula

September 25, 2022

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autism characteristics, autistic identity, creativity, employment