I wasn’t feeling very well yesterday afternoon and I thought that possibly I’d need to give up on taking lamotrigine but I was perfectly fine when I woke up today so fingers crossed. Obviously it is too early to say if I’ll be able to take this medication safely and it is upsetting to think that so may meds didn’t work for me. The biggest disappointment was aripiprazole which made me feel fantastic for a week and then, the second week, I was agitated and irritable.

When I had my appointment the doctor also asked if I ever taken antidepressants. I did indeed used to take sertraline, that was when I worked in Home Group. I was taking it to be able to cope with harassment. The psychiatrist asked if they made me maniac? Possibly that’s what it was. That’s why I fought with my coworker (let’s call her Devi). Maybe if I wasn’t on sertraline I’d leave.

It’s 8am now and I have no plans for today. I’m still feeling depressed, which is understandable, I can’t expect meds to work that quickly. I may go to the gym though.