I have a friend who used to invest in stocks in Poland in the 90s. It was a new thing in our country at the time as stock market wasn’t available during communism. So I asked her if she wants to trade. ‘We could compare strategies’ I said.

She asked what she needed to start. Good Internet connection, a little bit of money to start with and an app from Play Store, I said.

Her mobile barely works, she replied. She can barely send a text message.

It was a bit of an unusual response. Who wants to have a mobile that doesn’t work properly, shouldn’t she replace it anyway, even if she doesn’t want to trade? Not to mention that the last time I saw her, which was only two months ago, she was using her mobile to take loads of photos so it worked well at the time.

Thank God, I was aware this is how neurotypical people communicate and I said ‘ok, no problem, maybe some other time.’ My friend wasn’t illogical, she just didn’t want to get involved in trading for this reason or another. And I got the hint.

I had the appointment with my psychiatrist. He prescribed lamotrigine which is mood stabiliser working mostly on the depression spectrum. Kind of like antidepressants for bipolar people. This is exactly the med that I wanted to try.