Ok, so I didn’t comment on that properly yet. Yesterday The Boyfriend said he didn’t want to be in a friend with benefits situation with me, he wanted a proper relationship. But earlier on I told him that something that he has done earlier really upset me and I’m worried it may happen again.

What he said for that was: I’m really sorry if I given you trauma. If you feel like that then it’s possibly better if you stay away from me so that you have the opportunity to recover.

And I’m wondering what he meant by this? Either that he doesn’t want anything to do with me – but then he just said that he loves me two days ago. Or possibly he thinks that I decided I need to sleep with other guys for a bit – that’s what he meant by ‘recover’. And this is not what I want to do at all! Why would I? Other guys are not fun at all.

So I now feel like I need to work out if that relationship has any potential for the future, but then if I try to do that straight away he will not take my other concerns seriously. And my other concern is that I want to keep blogging about everything that is autism related and that includes him. OMG, what have I done? It really feels like my brain is going to explode in a bit!

Oh well, I guess I’ll just keep blogging.

But if you see him around somewhere, tell him that I love him.