I spent a significant time outdoors today, that was because me favourite hostel wasn’t available. Did I tell you that I had to move somewhere else for the weekend as the first hostel, that is by the river, was fully booked by a group that came to do kayaking.

I had to check out on Friday morning. The receptionist allowed me to keep the keys as she wasn’t going to be in today but she warned me she’s not sure what time the kayaking group is going to leave. ‘Probably not before 2’ she said.

However, I decided I didn’t like the second hostel that much and I left at 10am. I’ll just wait outside, I thought. It turned out, however, that the kayaking group was still here at 17.45! All that time I kept wandering around the area trying not to look suspicious and finally at 6, when it really looked like they all left, I got into my room.

And then another guest turned up, a lady approximately my age, and a caretaker came to let her in. She comes from Tomaszów but lives in Germany now and her mum is in the same care home as mine. I didn’t tell her my mum is going to be transferred to a private home tomorrow, she wouldn’t understand my reason and the fact that despite having funds for that I consider myself to be poor.

We spoke briefly but I didn’t ask her about her name and she didn’t ask for mine. That’s the thing with my social contacts, although I wouldn’t say people are rejecting me, they don’t really approach me either. It always has to be me who asks their names and sends Facebook friends requests when everyone around got Facebook friendly like 3 months earlier. I don’t know what it is exactly that prevents people from making first move to befriend me.

Also no one ever tags me in Facebook games. I don’t know if people think I wouldn’t like playing or maybe I don’t even cross their minds when they’re thinking about who to tag.