The private care home looked a bit like a hotel, slightly over the top and much better than any care home I’ve ever seen in the UK (and I’ve seen a few). I was slightly reluctant after seeing that and also it’s in the middle of nowhere, but then I think a lot of care homes in Poland are in the middle of nowhere. The price is just a tiny bit higher than full price of government care home so something doesn’t seem right.

I called mum and she was happy to go there, it even seemed to me she was expecting me to arrange something like that for her. I got relieved and got over the fact this is how mum’s money will be spent.

But now, just an hour after I went to bed, I woke up feeling anxious again, thinking why this is our only option. My mum would be ok being at home with just a bit of help, and yet, she can’t be there.