I am suddenly angry at mum, thinking why she couldn’t get the grip of what was happening with her money. Why? But then, that’s who she was. She couldn’t do tax return (they are compulsory in here) even when she was younger. She was however very good at asking people to do things for her and that’s why she liked Mrs J. (the bank employee) that much. I liked Mrs J. at first too, she seemed fun and approachable. It was only last year that I realised she didn’t make much sense when asked for any details. Well, she couldn’t make sense of course as the details had to be hidden.

I feel so vulnerable again. I’m not safe in this world, that’s how I feel. If someone can steal money from an elderly person, then what kind of world we live in?

Plus the whole situation reminds me of the pattern that I experience through life: naive, vulnerable, naive again, and then suddenly I get to omg I caught you red handed!!!

That’s because I’m socially naive and it makes some people want to take an advantage of me as they think they can get away with things. But I’m not naive with procedures so when one gets broken I see it very clearly and react fast. And that makes those people angry, like if it was me who wanted to take advantage of them.

That is a good question actually, is Mrs J. angry with me, while she’s in prison? Or maybe she’s angry with herself? What was she spending money for? From the photo of her getting arrested it looked like she lived in a block of flats. But then of course, if she looked rich, it would be too suspicious for everyone around. So what was she spending money for?

I feel a bit sorry for her son and a husband, it must be difficult situation to be in, certainly much more difficult than mine.