I had a gardener cutting some trees in my garden today and every time I had to speak with him I felt really upset. He was a nice bloke but it wasn’t the first time I felt this way when I had to speak with someone. Thank god I don’t get this at work or when shopping (although I usually choose self service checkout anyway) but probably everywhere else.

Later on I was on the bus, wearing headphones, and a young woman approached me. I took my headphones off and she said I look very nice in a top I was wearing. The colour works very well for me, she said. I was rather surprised. I got that top from Asos tall range as it was on offer so at least the sleeves are long enough but red is not my colour. I got upset again, just because I had to respond. Not to mention I started questioning her motives: red really is not my colour so why did she say that? Possibly she wanted me to look not very nice so that she was prettier? That didn’t really make much sense as I’m unlikely to see her again. Seriously, I wish no one ever told me that neurotypicals have their own agenda; now I look for it everywhere.

I can vaguely remember how I told a woman on a train once she has very nice nails; they were yellow and yellow is my favourite colour. Mind you, I got upset about talking to her too even though it was me who initiated contact.

Is it possible then that the woman from the bus praised my top because red was her favourite colour?

Anyway, with so many instaces of getting upset because of speaking to someone I decided I must be allergic to people. What do you think?