Is it possible to know? And can I stop being unhappy somehow?

I didn’t manage to fill in the online study withdrawal form because there’s an error on submitting. If I still wanted to study and all of this was just a little bit bigger meltdown I’d probably decide that’s a notification for me to continue, but I don’t feel like that at all.

I feel like University of Hull really let me down and I want nothing to do with them.

But what is it that I actually want?

And do I need to want something?

Is it not possible for me to just be happy?

My job is ok, my flat is not too bad, my relationship would probably be better if I wasn’t moaning all the time. I have the blog and can even write a couple of books. A couple of people will eventually buy them, not many, let’s be honest, but my financial situation is ok, at the end of the day.

Why I can’t just be happy with my life?