So as you may know I’m going to be discharged from my mental health services on the 1st of July. I feel like I was being abrupt with my psychiatric nurse lately and that caused communication breakdown but I prefer to leave it this way. Having a good relationship with my nurse when I’m about to be discharged would only prevent me from moving forward.

What happened was, a few days ago my nurse asked me over text how I feel and I told her I’m psychotic but I don’t need any help because I behave normal. After that I just didn’t reply to her text.

The thing is, though, I don’t want to be impolite. She doesn’t deserve it. Yet I decided to keep the communication breakdown as it is. I think I was subconsciously using similar techniques when I was younger, but then the constant focus on trying to be polite made me stop and as a result I started constantly finding myself in situations where people were forcing their support on me even though I wanted to be left alone.

How are you today, Magda? – the nurse asked yesterday.

Thank you for reaching out – I responded. – I do appreciate.

I ignored the question, not the person. That means I don’t want to talk about it. Thank god she got the message and only said ‘thanks’ to that.