What happened today was that I went to work early in the morning, to a supported living place that I’ve been to before, and I found out that I’m not on the rota while my agency only sent me re-confirmation on Friday and today is Monday. I was also not on the rota for 24th. I forgot to ask about my bookings for next week.

My agency pays a bit more that others, especially for sleeping shift – I still get hourly rate, so I get 90 pounds for 9h of sleeping, while other agencies pay approx 40-50 pounds and my hourly rate is also a bit higher. To be honest it was surprising that I got any shifts at all – it would be common sense if clients only use my agency to only cover sleepings if they have last time cancellations, while I got offered those shifts like two weeks in advance.

It turn out a staff from another agency came over and they are on the rota, not me. Great, isn’t it? And I had to get up at 5.30am to get there on time!

As I did a couple of shifts for this company already, I started wondering if I probably told any staff that I’m a blogger. That was the first thing that came to my mind: that my blogging has been reported, someone from the management read a few posts and cancelled my shifts to let me know I’m not welcomed there.

Only after asking about it on my autistic female group I started thinking about it more clearly and got to realise that the company that cancelled my booking is the same one that always gets their permanent employees wages wrong. I know quite a few people who worked there and they all said the same thing. So if the company can’t take proper care of their own staff, why would they bother about agency?

Yet the fear I experienced around that event made me think I need to go anonymous for my own piece of mind. Obviously it’s possible that I’ll change my mind later, when I calm down.