I got an email today from Psychiatry Operations Manager at Cambridge University, Dominic Drane, who stated that Professor Simon Baron-Cohen answered all my questions – well, I suppose he had, at least most of them, they just weren’t the right answers. Mr Drane also explained that Professor Baron-Cohen was advised not to email me any more, which I believe was the right thing to do. I now cannot get stressed any more about the fact that I didn’t like the answer or that Professor forgot to use capital letter when spelling my name. Funny thing, isn’t it? Perhaps as autism researcher he should have known that we, autistics, can get obsessed about small details.

Mr Drane stated that I am welcomed to contact him regarding any other questions that I think haven’t been answered, but where would that take me at the end? Professor Baron-Cohen is the best autism specialist at the Cambridge University so Mr Drane would go and ask him those questions to provide me with answers, therefore nothing would change.

From what I know I’m not the first autistic person who is not fond of Professor Baron-Cohen, and yet, he continues to receive all the attention when autism is being discussed. What can I do with that? Request that he should be transferred to a different job, like possibly, a janitor position? That’s not going to help, is it?

However, in the past I used to react this way in situations where I really didn’t like someone and wanted them to be eliminated. I never achieved anything this way and yet, next time I’d do the same thing. You could think I should be able to learn from past mistakes, yet, in those situations learning from experience really didn’t work.

I can never get what I want when I’m stubborn. And in this particular situation I’ll never get what I want no matter what.