Tag: symbols
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Mum is going to heaven
I posted a few times about how I understand symbols and how they help me identify my emotions. I actually regret now that I didn’t give that topic a separate tag – they are all under communication tag. I may go back to those posts and rectify that but it won’t be today. Just to…
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Complex family dynamics
Trigger warning: mentions possibility of suicide in the family I didn’t write about my brother for quite a while, I guess I maybe mentioned him once or twice since I had to leave our family home and move to the hostel back in September. He is not a glamorous person to write about: he is…
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My body doesn’t exist (and how I understand symbols)
So, before I move on to what this post is going to be about, which is a bit embarrassing, I will start with explanation that I don’t really have much of an awareness of my physical body and therefore I don’t worry about my health too much. I don’t know how to explain that but…
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Home at last
I felt very weird when I went into my flat yesterday, it seemed like something is different. I remember thinking to myself ‘this is your home now’. I never thought about it as my home, home was in Smardzewice, the flat in Swindon was only a place where I lived. I suppose now, after I…
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Me and mum – the last visit this trip
Mum seemed alert today again and yet barely talked to me. She said again she has a feeling everything is going to be well and even that my brother will stop drinking. She also asked me why I went back to the UK before dad died (that’s a story for another post altogether). I didn’t…
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Isolation of victim
A few weeks ago I posted to Tomaszów Facebook group asking if there is anyone there who’s money also got stolen by Mrs J but I didn’t get a sensible response. A man reached out claiming he can help me get the money back and he said that ‘his neighbour is a lawyer’. I decided…
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Struggling
Trigger warning: this post mentions suicidal thoughts. I read online that talking about suicidal thoughts doesn’t make people any more likely to act on them but I know some readers prefer trigger warning, and that’s absolutely fine. So I was really struggling mentally and emotionally, walking up early in the morning and feeling like I’m…
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I want magic
That’s what one of Redecor challenges is called. I read it and thought I want magic too. But magic is not going to happen. My brother now says he doesn’t want my share of the house, even though it would come with a small piece of land that he could sell. He probably decided it’s…
Autistic and me 