Tag: Poland
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I had a bath
And I feel a bit better. I am hoping that I will be able to sleep tonight without olanzapine again. I do not feel too triggered, thank god, but I am not totally calm either. I finally realised I cannot go to Poland and also, that possibly I need my sick note extended. It’s a…
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I want to be the breave one!
I still feel really panicky. It seems to me like two hostels bookings not working out is a sign that I should stay (notification) but at the same time I feel like I really want to go, to help my country and our neighbours who are stuck there. I know I won’t be able to…
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Feeling panicky about my trip tomorrow
A few hours ago I received email through Booking.com that my hostel reservation has been cancelled. The property called me a few minutes later to confirm and stated that they had a large group of students coming and are overbooked. That never happened to me before. I started thinking, whether, possibly they were told by…
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Should I take a refugee?
I’ve been thinking, maybe when (and if) I go to Poland, I should find an Ukrainian refugee to bring back with me? I would need to tidy up the spare room, but it’s not too bad and I recently got rid of a massive armchair from there, that wasn’t very comfortable to sit on, so…
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Is it safe to go to Poland?
I’m flying on the 18th. I check news several times a day and I’m prepared to change my plans if needed. But I don’t really think Putin would attack Poland. Poland is part of NATO so, I assume, he would be concerned of repercussions. I also believe he’s a narcissist and, as he’s playing a…
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The truth about my family?
It’s 3.30am and I woke up at 2. That means I managed an hour and a half without posting. I sometimes wonder if I post too much? I definitely post much more when I’m emotionally unstable. I wonder if this is something that I should hide? But what is the difference between hiding this and…
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I can’t cope (seriously, how do I not enable my brother?)
So basically my brother doesn’t want to do anything regarding organising my mum’s funeral. I spoke with him again yesterday and he said he can barely walk but ‘will try to do something’. Today the neighbour called me to say that he wanted to speak with my brother but he is never in. Why is…
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My mum died
Her care home called me around 30 minutes ago and I kind of knew that was it. Possibly because they never call? If there was an issue, they emailed and told me to call them back. She was apparently doing ok, had her supper like every day and then… it’s very sudden. I called my…
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Croissants and yoghurt – continuation
Ok, just a quick post as I’m really tired today. I barely had any sleep last night, that’s how bad the mattress in the previous hotel was. Now I’m in Weymouth and trying to rest but I feel like the whole idea of blogging about autism specific communication is suddenly overwhelming me. Possibly there is…
Autistic and me 