Tag: mum
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Should I learn to drive? (probably not)
I had this idea yesterday that it’s finally time to learn to drive. How I came up with that was probably because the only pattern I can see in lifes of successful people, who have something exciting going on for them, is that they are drivers. And, as I didn’t see any other pattern, it…
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It was a difficult day
I think my emotions finally woke up and I find it difficult to manage them. I mean, I’d probably look perfectly normal to you, as an autistic person at least – I spent almost entire day playing my block sudoku game. I’m quite scared of putting it away, I think it may be because, when…
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My dream
I had a dream that I came to the care home to collect mum for leave. It took a while to get her meds right and I watched TV news while waiting, where I found out that my cousin, who is a nurse, was taken to employment tribunal by her employer for being disrespectful to…
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How I really feel?
I noticed the last couple of days that my blog posts become significantly shorter. I seem to stop analysing my feelings. And in fact I don’t feel that drama in my chest that I used to feel when things didn’t go according to plan. So if I don’t feel drama, I don’t need to post…
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Quick update on my sleep
So yesterday I did a meditation from School Sleep app around lunch time and didn’t do any standard meditation (by standard meditation I mean this one where we’re supposed to force ourselves to relax). Later on I still found it difficult to drift off to sleep peacefully, even though I was tired, but I didn’t…
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This is post 500
View this post on Instagram A post shared by Magda Regula (@magda_regula) The above is my Redecor design from this morning. It’s really cute with this painting, wouldn’t you agree? Ok, you probably wouldn’t, I get it. As I say about most of my Redecor designs, I wouldn’t want to live there but it would…
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Does Law of Attraction work?
I just saw this ad on my block sudoku game: Law of Attraction really works. That’s why you’re completely broke. And I thought: I’m not broke. Are you telling me that I can be? Strange how mind works, isn’t it? Anyway, how ads work is that they display content similar to what one interacted with…
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There will be no future
That’s how I feel right now – again. It’s 4.40am and it’s Monday. I only just woke up, after having a strange, disturbing dream: I visited my family home and, as I was walking through it, I felt that depressing energy that was trying to suck me in. It was like two black holes, one…
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I’m back to being myself
My ‘being anonymous’ experiment lasted for almost a week and I don’t think I liked it. It shows though that I have no ability to predict how I will feel in a new situation. I went anonymous because it was suggested as a solution to my workplace problems by two ladies in my autism group.…
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‘Just say something!’
I was just asked if I want to be a guest on a podcast and I had to refuse. It was not an easy decision, if I have to be honest, as I’d love to share my truth as widely as possible, but I’m worried it may all backfire. I took a part in a…
Autistic and me 