Tag: mum
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7.45am
I’m kind of ready with mum’s bank statements. They’re very confusing. 3 accounts, I don’t know what for really, to make the matter more confusing I guess. There was at least one more that I was given authorisation to use, that I never took any advantage of and this one got closed and we never…
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Back at the hostel
I finally know where all the people from the area spend their Sunday: in the adventure park just outside of my window! It’s very busy there today. I feel like I could do with a nap. I don’t know who is going to sort out the papers for the police for tomorrow, I don’t feel…
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Feeling low
It’s almost 11am, Sunday. I am having difficulties with deciding what to do with myself. I have 4 eggs and some bread but apart from that no other food and shops are closed on Sundays. I’d really like some fruit. I need to prepare for the investigation that is tomorrow morning and I’m really dreading…
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Coping
I was just thinking how mum always tried to help me to cope with things. She didn’t seem to understand the world around her very well but had good ideas sometimes. Her ideas helped me organise a lift to the airport at the beginning of lockdown when majority of buses got cancelled and we only…
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How my mum ended up living with me
Over a year ago my mum passed out and was taken to a hospital. It’s not clear who called an ambulance, social services say it was her support worker who used to come twice a week for a bit and my brother says it was him. She was in the hospital for a few days…
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I miss mum
After the situation when my mum was asleep when I called, I didn’t call again. I find it very difficult to speak with her. I wouldn’t know what to say if she says she wants to be back in Smardzewice, where her home is. It would be very difficult for me to decide if I…
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Supermarket
I went out for a bit, had a short walk through a nearby forest and went to a supermarket that, what’s not unusual in Poland, didn’t have any small shopping baskets, only trolleys. Not that I needed to buy a lot of stuff but carrying even very few items in my hands was rather uncomfortable.…
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Shutdown
It’s midday and the only thing I did so far was collecting my daily gold gift on Redecor. I’m staying in bed, trying to rest. I took olanzapine yesterday late evening as I couldn’t calm my thinking process. It’s so difficult to make sense of things and accept this family situation is my new normal,…
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The call
I wanted to call my mum and the nurse passed the phone to her but I guess she didn’t make sure my mum is fully awake (she likes her afternoon nap) and there was only silence there so I disconnected the call, slightly irritated and then I thought: that is what is going to happen…
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The purpose of life
I often wonder what is the purpose of life. Is it just to earn enough money for bills? I don’t want it to be like that, I crave something more, some kind of fulfilment, but I don’t know what it could be. I suppose I’d like to have an impact on the world, but in…
Autistic and me 